This blog is about life. And death. And loss. As experienced by me (obviously)….
I am not sure what my intention is, other than to try and get all the tangles out of my head, and into some other format…so that I can continue to “move forward”. The details of my story will probably come out bit by bit. That’s just how I am, not completely comfortable spilling my guts right up front, about things that are so personal, yet living in this modern world, and aware that sharing can help.
What I will tell you is, that last year, within the span of four months, I lost the two most significant men in my life. My dad died in January 2012, followed unexpectedly by my sweet husband, 4 months later. My dad was 71, my husband was 39. They died of different causes, but I was present for each of their last breaths.
I know I have been deeply affected at my core, but I don’t know how yet.
A couple other things that might be worth mentioning:
- This blog won’t be an “altar” to the ones I’ve lost (because they were both private people, and it’s too personal), but it will be an exploration of how their lives and deaths affected me.
- This blog will definitely contain cursing…and probably, also, incomplete thoughts, some rantings that are too long…and total over-use of ellipses.
- I can’t promise that the posts are in any kind of “order”.
- I still have a sense of humor, though it might not be in everyone’s taste.
- There will be questions about “faith”, spirituality, and belief systems. I do not believe in God, but I do believe in “something”. (I am just not sure what that “something” is anymore.)
- All the illustrations are my own, and the photos were taken either by me or my husband, unless otherwise stated.